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Thursday, February 14, 2008

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 16:05:02 GMT

VALENTINE'S BEING VALENTINE'S

VALENTINE'S DAY , is what many think as a day for Lovers but me on the other hand thinks that this day is for everyone who loves someone, let it be towards parents, siblings or friends, it's still the same feeling of love.

Valentine's is what most of us wait for just to show our love to each other and me being the same as most of them, longed for this day just to show my loved ones how much I LOVE THEM n how much I treasure their presence in my life. Although there are many other days to do this 14th February seem to be the Best day.

Me, being a Libran, LOVES LOVE, love being in love and love being loved. All I need in my life is LOVE, all I ever want is Love, all I ever need is Love, Love and Love. I Love seeing others in Love and Love being in Love.

Today, was never like my previous Valentine's. Although I just stayed at home , receiving Valentine messages and calls from Loved ones made me feel Loved and made me feel Valentine's. Of course I did send out messages to all who ever made it to my heart, but the reply I got from all of it made me feel special. All i ever yearn for was to love others and to be loved in return and today I realise that I've always been Loved just not knowing it.

It made me wonder, why do many wait for such a day to express their love when they have 365 days to do so. I realise that I must not wait for such a day to say it but to just do so when I feel like it, when I still have the chance to, keeping in mind those stories that I read stating not to delay telling your Loved ones how much you love them or it might be soon too late.

Today, taught me the Irony of life. I was in love with a guy previously for about 4 years, and for all those 4 years I've yearn to have a nice Valentine together. It never happen, but I did understand as we were both in a distance, he studying about 300 kms away and I studying back home. Being young at that time, all we could do was talk on the phone and that was better than nothing. I recently broke up with him, staying friends. Today, I had dinner with that same guy but just in a different r/ship - friends. The Irony is when I wanted it so much I didn't get it and when I didn't want it I was able to get it, very Ironic right.

I thought that being single would made me feel less Loved but today taught me, that I'm always being loved, all the time although I'm single or not.

"VALENTINE'S 2008 HAS NEVER BEEN BETTER"

" I LOVE YOU, LOVE "

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 16:18:56 GMT

Life Is Like A Maze. . . !!!

    Life has its ups n downs.... its how we live thru it... loads of decision to make n nvr will it be right all the time... n nvr will v know whether did v make a right decision until n when it takes its effect ... Altho how bad the decision v made , v still hv to live with it n move on , all mistakes can be corrected juz tat the correction happens in different ways......... Life is only hard wen u think it is.... LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.... LIFE IS WANT YOU WANT IT TO BE.... LIFE IS AMAZING - LIVE IT THAT WAY.....
    We adore the people who doesnt care abt us n v don care abt the people who adore us.... We love the people who hurt us n hurt the people who loves us. At times, We don appreciate what we hav n yearn for more better stuff n then we regret juz to realise what we had was the best we could ever have... this is normal rite... but the worst part is how much it affects us.

    I'm a very loving person in return i want others to show me sum love as well... i want attention from my loved ones n when i don get it i feel unloved... which leads me to thinking they don love me.... Well tis is how i am...n i don think tis will change... n i Juz LOVE Being LOVED.... hehehe.... i LOVE everyone who loves me
    LOVE IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME.... N MY LOVED ONES IS ALSO VERY IMPORTANT TO ME.... WITHOUT THEM IM NO ONE....
    I juz love being happy n i love making others happy... im so annoying n irritating at times, i think so... or mayb its always

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 17:08:51 GMT

THE BRIDESMAIDS SHOPPING

At Franz's place (Kepong) waiting to leave to Damansara Uptown to look for our Bridesmaid's dresses... which v were all excited about... juz to let u know : The BRIDE is Sabrina, MAID OF HONOUR is non other than Clara n the 2 BRIDESMAIDS is .... ten ten ten Marilyn ( ME ) n Franzeene...
SHOPPING !! SHOPPING !! SHOPPING !! HERE V CUM !!!!!!

Sabrina busy talking on the phone n did u notice sumthing she is wearing sunglasses in the hse

Clare juz waiting to go, she is actually watching Mr.Bean seriously... hehehe!!!

Mandy is juz waiting for all of us to start moving... Good pose Mandy!!!

I'm falling asleep waiting, asleep with ma eyes half open n me half smiling... tats me different!!!

Franz feeling sleepy already... or mayb she is juz so bored!!!

The Bridesmaids N Mandy posing... SwEEt...!!!

Half way thru the shopping process v got tired, hanging out at Starbucks

Sabrina, discussing details abt her Wedding

Mandy enjoying here Java Chip n Franz always sesat - Blurr... she's lost i guess

Clare n Marie posing for the camera, gosh i look like i juz woke up...!!!

The Bride - to - be walking under the rain, covering her head, not wanting to fall sick but Sab i doubt it would work but it's worth a shot

Walking around Damansara Uptown finding for boutique

Walking to the boutique tat had all we wanted

One of what i really like the most there...!!!

The three Bridesmaids in a dress tat v were abt to say yes to!!!

The Bride n her Bridesmaids posing in the boutique tat thay loved...!!!

We are done with our shopping for the day, which ended abt 6.30pm.... hmm, tats really long - abt 7 hrs... hehehe, well tats gurls n moreover its us , wat do expect, obviously we want the best... v got a nice long dress in Grey... which v will only get on 10th Jan 2008... after all the trouble v went thru n all the problems with this dress... it is really wat v like... actually v r in love with it... now the issue is our parents n their opinions... lets wait n c... i'll keep u updated on tat... for now its Adios Amigos....!!! muaxxs...

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 15:19:41 GMT

What A day!!!

Today - started of well. . . went for claz as usual after that had an appoint with my cousin sister - to take her for her interview since she dont really know much abt KL. . . . im De reliable one la. . .hmm. . . so i waited for her at KL Central. . . she came after work n we had to go to A building opposite Istana hotel. . . tats a place i wont forget. . . i n my fren Got LOST finding the Hotel when it wuz actually so near to the MONORAIL. . . wuz freaking pissed with myself at tat time. . . we took a big round to get thr. . . damn. . .

Ok. . . lets get back to this story k. . . so v took the monorail n got down at RAJA CHULAN. . . found the place correctly but wuz too early - My cousin called the lady n the lady said that it wuz too early - n asked us to go have a drink. . . v decided to have our dinner n got back at 7.45 for theinterview. . . but the lady wuz not thr she asked us to go up to the 6th FLR. . . thats when v realised tat it wuz not an interview but a product briefing - HERBAL LIFE . . . my cuz SABRINA wuz so PISSED. . .n then v came back without attending it. . . well looking on the bright side - v have not hang out together for quite a long time. . . so anyhow v had a great time together. . .

On the KTM back to KLG. . . i tot of sleeping but thr wuz a guy ENTERTAININ us all the way till. . . im not sure whr. . .forgot adi larr. . . n it wuz fun. . . i wuz also admiring a BABY - so cute, adorable, felt like carrying but SCARED to ask the mum. . . n then got home n now having a BACK PAIN frm carrying my heavy bag . . .n LEG PAIN frm walking a lot. . . i need more rest . . .

OH THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I FORGOT TO TELL - I FAILED TWO PAPERS N ONLY PASSED I PAPER. . . IM GRATEFUL FOR ATLEAST PASSING ONE. . . SO SAD THAT I NOW HAVE TO RESIT TAT PAPERS AGAIN. . . I REALLY NEED TO CONCENTRATE N STUDY PROPERLY LARR THIS TIME. . . OR NOT MY DAD WILL KILL ME. . . I TOLD HIM TODAY VIA SMS. . .BUT DUNNO WATS GONNA HAPPEN - HAVE TO WAIT TILL HE GETS HOME LATER. . . OH GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME. . .

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 17:59:26 GMT

Well, i know its been so long since i blogged. . . . wat to do. . . so busy nowadays. . . I'm gonna stop my work at Starbucks. . .so sad u know. . . will b missing all de fun. . . i had thr. . .but one gud thing - my manager said i can cum join them for all their outings. . . isn't tat great. . . i Know they r gonna miss me like hell. . . Hehehe. . . but let them miss me a bit la. . . n i too will be missing them loads k. . .
i went to genting on the 13th. . . with my store partners. . . it wuz so fun. . . we visited the 3 starbucks store thr. . . n met this slutty barrista. . . which still annoys me wen anyone reminds me abt her. . .ee. . . but hack with her. . . we also play a few games. . . space shot, cockscrew, flying dragon. . . n lots more. . .then v were juz walking around joking with each other, n taking pictures - of us k n not de view. . . well v all so peraasan - poser kay. . . will show u a few poser of my store. . .It wuz so fun with all my partners. . . cant wait for the next trip - BBQ. . .sumwhr near a lake. . . not sure whr. . . my store most of them like to eat kay. . .
u know wen on the way up to Genting. . . the other car which consist of Diana, Zaria, Ejard n Baim. . . were continuesly eating frm the time v left klg till v reach Genting. . . n they finish up their food n lucky thing the car i wuz in which consist of Chris, Ubai, Arshad,Ker Shin, N me. . .wuz not tat hungry i guess - we had ours left so they took a few frm us later on k. . . tat much of a eater they r. . . tats y i think they had a hard time driving up genting - hahahahahahah. . .

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 04:37:52 GMT

Disaster. . .

Friday. . . was a disaster, I n Clare planned to go bird watching. . . then so we went to Sunway Pyramid, well we were late. . . we reached there abt 9.30pm. . . and haven't had our dinner. . . n we saw this nice classy place called TONY ROMA'S. . . its was a great place n the service is so good - each waiter or waitress walked pass always smiled n greeted us. . . n the guy that treated us was so adorable. . .
so we ordered a salad - there was 2 size (half / full) so i thought that half might be too little for us so i ordered full n then we ordered chicken n chips well i forgot the name. . . when the salad came WE WERE SPEECHLESS. . . it was freaking big. . . we started eating , it seems that it juz wasn't finishing n we were still eating n eating even though the other dish was waiting for us. . . wen we saw the other dish we were shocked that was big too. . . OMG. . . what have i done. . . then somewhr abt 10, the manager came to us n then she tells us that it was served at American size well we thought it was the normal " Malaysian Size" i felt so dumb. . . embarrassed ourselves , its ok coz " Learn from our mistakes"
At the end we told her to pack the other dish n we ended up finishing the salad. . . well clare ate most of it. . . Even the drink we couldn't finish k. . .
We left the place at abt 10.30, went to get tickets for Fantastic 4, but all sold out. . . cant u believe it " ALL SOLD OUT " . . . so we walked around 4 awhile n then juz got back home. . . n call it a day. . . of disaster. . .
Its ok we made a point that it would never be like this on the next friday. . .

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 18:30:40 GMT

omg its been freaking long since i blogged. . . like more than a month, well i was studying so seriously . . . i have to pass, cant afford to fail. . . or not my dad will juz kill me or worst kick me out of de hse. . . tats wat he claims. . .
a month staying at KL, studying with ma cuz who is doing de same course. . . really missed de freedom i had at ma hse n family n frens as well. . . its seems so long ya!!! now i have to get back to work after a long break. . . cant wait but at the same time i think i forgot most of de stuff. . .

GENTING HIGHLANDS

on friday, me, my family, my aunties, n cousins all went to Gentings for a one day trip, it was so freaking fun, i loved the space shot,

n the cockscrew, unfortunately v didnt have to go on the flying dragon, n went go kart as well tat was so fun - tat was my 1st time, n i was the first to start n first to finish. . . n i went for an extra round. . . hehehe. . . the pics will be out soon - im having some trouble uploading the photos. . .

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 14:50:24 GMT

LOVE

On Friday the 27th -

                               I didn't have class, so juz stayed at home studyin hehehe but. . . well to be honest i think i only studied for about an hour. . . What ! ! ! an hour for the whole day. . . OMG. . .    This is seriously so bad. . . i only have a month before exam. . . Marilyn ! Wake Up ! Start Studyin !

                Kay, tats not what i wana talk now. . . heres what i wana say : at nite my dad call us out for dinner n suddenly he calls saying that he gotta meet a client. . . So the plan to go out for dinner was canceled. . . N my brothers Mervyn N Melvyn N Clifford went to McD but didnt want me to follow so they juz ask wat i n my mum wana eat. . . I asked for fries as I ate adi. . . but when they came back , they didn't buy me my fries. . . i got so angry. . . bloody angry. . . shouted at them not at all of them but at my Mervyn n juz carried on watching TV. . . Then Mervyn N Clifford went out. . . wonder Y - didn't really bother but when they came back Merv had an Ice Cream in one hand N Fries on the other. . . Felt so happy N Shocked at the same time. . . This is the first time Merv did this for me. . . Thanked him but felt so sad for shouting at him earlier. . .
             One thing I'm not sure weather Cliff convince Merv or Merv felt bad. . . anyway I'm happy that they Love Me. . . ! ! !
             Love ! ! ! Love ! ! ! Love ! ! !

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 15:39:27 GMT

        Hmm. . . life is going on like normal juz add the pressure of exams nearing the corner and not to forget my family pressuring me to stop work which i feel good abt . . . well i feel good working there. . . yeah i know i need to study. . .n im working on it. . . hello!!! bear with me here. . . oh God pls be with me . . . N Bless Me. . .

       Today. . . Starbucks Centro Held coloring contest for Orphanage. . . n u know me - like kids. . . so i agreed to help out although it was my off day. . . n my beloved manager said he'll count me as working. . . but in the end. . . i was doing beverages n the normal stuff. . . im like " Hello where's my initial job - help the kids. . . " so frustrated but still had fun with my partners n awhile with the kids. . . they r all so cute kay. . .

       And im having a number miss callin me n the best part is i dont know the number. . . its stated UNKNOWN. . . hELLO Y bother miss callin if u dont wan me to know ur number. . . its either " U're " stupid or either u really wana annoy me. . . then its working hooray!!! Congratulations. . .

       OK tats it larr. . . take care all of you. . . thanks for listening. . . have a great day. . .

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 05:47:51 GMT

    Lately I've been so busy with my work and studies. . . to be honest actually more busy with work. . . i wonder how the others cope with work and studies. . . even worse when its ACCA. . . im having a hard time but hope everything will change soon. . . thursday & friday i was at Centro cleaning the store for the Opening on Monday. . . a bit excited but at the same time wondering Why should i work at that store, cant I just stay at Klang Parade. . . I miss my manager MJ so much and also all the other baristas there. . . not to forget my other managers Soon N Baim. . .

     I dont even have time to watch TV. . . now i know what busy means. . . but i feel better this way coz my whole day is filled with somethin to do. . . N i dont feel bored at all. . . i like working coz all my partners are so nice some are like me. . . N i feel happy this way. . .

    Once i read my horoscope in a magazine N it mentioned about love. . . it said that " dont rush into a relationship so fast take ur time its better not to be in a relationship than to be in a bad one " . . . N i agree i feel better now. . . with freedom n peace. . . no problems to face juz one thing no love !!!! but i have love from others my Parents, skip my brothers, my cousins n friends. . . Im so happy nowadays. . .
    Now, im juz sitting at home resting. . . the past 2 days was so tiring N had to carry lots of stuff n clean lots of stuff. . . now its time to relax, sit back and enjoy the day N watch TV. . . hehehehe

    Oh !!!! Thursday was Holy Thursday so i went to church. . . on the way back, waiting at a traffic light , i saw this cute little gurl in a car next to our car. . . the gurl is so cute n beautiful. . . small gurl abt 3-4 years old. . . but could notice that she is down - syndrome. . . i smiled at her n then she smiled , i waved at her n she waved back. . . then i gave her a flying kiss n she just looked. . . then she told her family in the car abt us. . . my cousins were all waving at her n she was too. . . it was green to go. . . suddenly she started giving flying kiss. . . i felt so touched. . . i return it. . . we had to go separate ways. . . n she was still waving n giving flying kiss. . . i kinda miss her. . . she is so adorable. . . well u know i like kids. . . this one i cant forget . . . i hope i get to see her again. . . God Bless Her. . .